Welcome to my blog. I respond to Angela. This is a blog that is probably never genuinely happy and a tad deep...but read on.
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posted : Friday, September 2, 2011
title : I will never let you know my pain. I will smile and hide it.
In reality, I'm slowly losing my mind. Underneath the guise of smile, gradually I'm dying inside. Friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly. Cause I don't want to reveal the fact that I'm suffering. So I wear my disguise till I go home at night and turn down all the lights and then I break down and cry.      #1. What's a nickname only your family calls you? Uhh my parents pretty much call me by my Chinese name which means angel. #2. What's a weird habit of yours? I walk around my room holding a vacuum cleaner sucking up even the most minuscule of dusts (NO I AM NOT OCD!). #3. Do you have any weird phobias? I have this fear of getting dirty, I tend to avoid anything that have a over a 10% chance of getting me dirty or sticky. #4. What's a song you secretly love to blast and belt out when you're alone? Somewhere over the rainbow XD #5. What's one of your biggest pet peeves? Omg I hate when I have to repeat myself because that person couldn’t be fucked to concentrate on what I was saying, like I’m not even kidding it makes me want to punch them hard in the face. #6. What's one of your nervous habits? I tend to clench my teeth when I get anxious. #7. What side of the bed do you sleep on? If your facing the bed I sleep on the left side because the right side is like only 30cm away from my balcony sliding window so it gets cold at night. #8. What was your first stuffed animal and it's name? My first stuffed animal wasn’t actually an animal. It was this cylindrical shape about the length of my arm. I got it when I was about 1 years old and guess what… #9. What's the drink you always order at starbucks? Iced coffee all the way!!! #10. What's the beauty rule you preach, but never actually practice? Uhh I follow al the beauty rules I preach. Hmmm but I always say wearing makeup too much will ruin your skin and I guess I don’t follow that as much as I should XD #11. Which way do you face in the shower? Fucking pervert =_=. I face the glass door? #12. Do you have any weird body skills? Uhhmmmm nope. I’m pretty flexible so I can do the splits and stuff. #13. What's your favorite comfort food that's bad but love to eat it anyways? FAIRY FLOSS! @_@ #14. What's a phrase or exclamation you always say? FUCK. YOU. #15. Time to sleep : what are you actually wearing? A black singlet and grey silk pj pants. |
A true friend is someone who sees the pain in your eyes while everyone else believes the smile on your face~
