Welcome to my blog. I respond to Angela. This is a blog that is probably never genuinely happy and a tad deep...but read on.
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posted : Saturday, May 7, 2011
title : The fake you
 "To promise not to do a thing is the surest way in the world to make a body want to go and do that very thing" "A promise is a comfort for a fool" "Promises are like the full moon, if they are not kept at once the diminish day by day" Promises are easy to make and hard to keep aren't they? How many times have you made a promise you tried to keep but failed in the end? I think everyone in their lifetimes have broken at least one promise if not more. Personally I believe that actions speak louder then words. "Trust is like a mirror..once its BROKEN you can never look at it the same again... " "I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it" People have constantly asked me why I'm so hard. Why I don't believe that there is love. Well simple, Its because I don't live in the Disney world where happily ever afters are the norm. I live in reality where pain and sorrow are the ones that shape you into who you are. I mean without ever experiencing hurt or sadness how are you ever going to become strong and stand back up when you fall? In reality you'd be lucky to meet over two people that you can fully trust without them breaking your heart afterwards (excluding you family of course) but even family can contain betrayal and a buried past. I'll let my guard down when people stop giving me reasons to keep it up Today I found out this really sad news from friend. Something that I would have never guessed if she never told me. So many things happen once you leave school, you never know what is going on in that persons life unless they decide to tell you. She has secrets you'll never know or understand, She appears so strong on the outside, But on the inside her world is spinning upside down. She’s smiling and standing tall to the outta world, She’s crying and breaking down in her inner world. She appears so happy to her friends, But alone, she shares her tears with her pillow. One touch, & she'll flinch One harsh, word & she'll cry One bad moment, & she'll break down She believes no one, because the people she has, lie & betray her. So for now she'll keep to herself & pretend everything is fine, when everything is wrong Who is this girl? Today was open day at our school. I felt like such a fatty afterwards cause I ate pizza ( thank god Karina helped me eat some), fairyfloss ( MY FAVORITE!!), gelato icecream and 3 spring rolls. But meh you have to enjoy life right? XD After open day I went with my mum to the hairdressers in the city and ohmigod it took like 1 hour and a half for leave that place ==. Haha I get so excited when we go shopping its like one of my obsessions. Here's my question to you: What mask do you wear to keep people form seeing the real you? |
A true friend is someone who sees the pain in your eyes while everyone else believes the smile on your face~
